Growing strong in weakness

So it's now been two whole months since clotty grew to really like it in my leg!!! Now I have named her clotty to make it sound nicer than it really is but I really don't like her at all!
She stops me doing what I want to do!! Like drive,run,play tennis with my boys!! I guess what gets me the most is having to rely on others and Not be as independent as I usually am! Walking with a stick makes You feel vulnerable and weak.
 I would love to know when clotty will leave and when I will get back to being me again.
 Today Clive and I talked about our fears my biggest one would be to stay as I am! Something I know I would just have to accept!!

 A lovely guy prayed for me this week he prayed that I would have 'Peace in patience' that pierced my soul it is so where I am at!!! It's ok to wait when you know that at the end of the queue you will get served, or at the end of labour you get a baby!!! But when your waiting to find out what your life will look like that's a different kind of waiting!
It's not easy being patient this last year I haven't been reading a devotional I wanted a break from it, it's written like Jesus is speaking to you.
 I was at my sisters and she had a copy so I picked it up and today's date was what I read

 Grow strong in your weakness some of my children I've gifted with abundant strength
others like you, have received the humble gift of frailty.
Your fragility is not a punishment, nor does it indicate lack of faith.
On the contrary,weak ones like you must live by faith, depending on me to get through the day.
 I am developing your ability to trust me,to lean on me rather than your own understanding.
Your natural preference is for you to plan out your day, knowing what will happen when.
My preference is for you to depend on ME continually, trusting me to guide you and strengthen you as needed. This is how you grow strong in weakness.
 Wow was this written just for me?????? Hard lesson to keep learning!!!!!
So the waiting continues!!!