When God is silent!

Do you ever feel that God is ignoring your prayers? Do you ever feel totally separated from Him? Or is it just me? As most of you who are close to us know, we have for the last few months been looking for jobs as we feel God wants us to move, you will also feel I am sure that we are totally bonkers!! I know we are! But I am ok with that!! These last few weeks have been particularly hard as the summer is vast approaching and that means we need to decide about schools for the boys and at what point do we say ok we are staying?!! It has been like an emotional roller coaster of emotions,Clive applies for jobs then we look at the area and then look at schools then we get the email sorry you haven't been short listed then we start all over again!! We pray harder God what shall we do? The boss remains silent! Other prayers gets answered and quickly and a friend reminds me that God is listening and answering you to encourage you that He is not deaf and you are still connected to Him! Phew! Yesterday I took some time out and started journaling with God it's from a book called Journalling as a spiritual practise by Helen Cepero. She suggests you write the date on the page then your name and start writing or waffling in my case to God, then write Gods name and wait and see what comes into your mind! I was sceptical but it was amazing! I read first Proverbs ch 2 v 8 For he guards the course of the just and protects the way of his faithful ones. (Proverbs 2:8 NIV) Which made me realise ok God is just shutting doors and guarding us from error, then I just ranted to Him about all my anxieties mostly regarding my boys! Then I waited and felt God say " you are trying to figure it all out yourself give it to me. It's like your doing a jigsaw and you only see pieces in front of you, I see it from a birds eye view, I see the completed picture. Keep trusting in me" So we are still in the same place of the unknown but I feel more at peace because God knows me and my family and He has us covered!