Thank the dear Lord lent is over,and that Easter has arrived!
This Lent I gave myself the challenge of giving up facebook and writing 40 cards in 40 days!
Day 1 I felt very virtuous as I took off my facbook app from my phone and replaced it with the bible app! I thought I would read a lent devotional at the same time as my other challenges, I am a all or nothing kind of girl!!
The first couple off weeks went well, I really didn't miss what everyone was doing on a day to day basis and definetely didn't miss negative statuses.
I enjoyed connecting with people through snail mail!
By week 3 I was feeling disconected with others and thought that is really sad as on Facebook I don't see people I just follow and comment on their lives!
It really got me thinking about community and how we were created to live in community and how we need one another to challenge and encourage each other.
These last 40 days I have not only felt disconnected with people but also felt disconnnected to God I have been reading and praying but doing it out of duty not out of desire.
I have met with good friends in person and through facetime and through conversation I have learnt that I have been pretty deflated and have been angry towards the church and at God about life and how broken people are and how God doesnt always mend everything!
Then I started reading a book called Reckess faith that a good friend lent me, let me share with you a few lines that grabbed me!
Beth Guckenberger writes 'Is my faith reckless enough to trust first and think second?
Can I grow faith strong enough like a muscle that when it has to pick up heavy reality, I can easilyl lift it and still have hope? That doesn't mean I don't think about consequensess and pain. but I layer those on top of faith instead of the other way round. When we try to layer faith on top, all the doubts and question on the bottom make for an unstable foundation, and it almost always cracks. But when we have faith at the base,the questions, when they come, don't insist on being answered right away.
Reckless faith isn't fake,It doesn't pretend, It feels deeply and lives fully. It asks questions and cries out and tests boundaries. It has dynamic conversations with God. It molds its understanding as it encounters new situations and experiences new growth. "God has a plan" is not a cliche or sticky plaster you put on wounds that aren't healing. 'God has a plan" is a mantra for a way of life that says you dont have all the answers to proceed. You can throw yourself to the red sea and believe if it parts, praise God! You knew it.
How does it open? why does it open now, when it didnt earlier? Why did it close on the Egyptians? to those questions , you apply faith that acts first and thinks second, Not in mindless obedience, but with childlke faith.
This spoke right into my being and has given me hope and as lent has finished I can get start to talk to God again not out of duty but out of desire! so my journey continues with God and people!
Missed you all!
Thank God for Easter!!!
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